WOW, time passes slow when you are feeling like shit! Making plans are hard, finding the strength and energy to take control of your life following a bad-ass flare up is HARD and committing to health it is even HARDER!
So, where did I disappear to? I had the unfortunate chance of suffering from an extended flare-up followed by extreme fatigue for months. It was all I could do to maintain my family/work schedule and the result was full weight gain. ALL that work that I put into creating a body that I was beginning to be proud of has been tossed out the window.
My mojo took a hike when my body was acting up.
My desire to worry about working my body out and developing vanity muscles had disappeared.
My only focus was managing my family and keeping mobile.
The occasional walk followed by extreme pain was about all I could muster.
On August 17th, my 40th birthday, my friends invited me to kayak down the river. Since I have spent a lot of time resting these past few months I was feeling strong enough to partake in one of my favorite sports and it was FABULOUS! That being said, it was also a moment of revelation. In these past months, with all my weight gain, I realized that I am not longer comfortable in my skin. I watched as my friends all enjoyed their time in the water, wearing cute bathing suits while, once again, I found myself on the sidelines. I am tired of sitting and watching life pass me by as I did in the past. Since my body has had regular Remicade treatments every 5 weeks and got my mobility back I realized what a gift those meds have been. Now that my body is working better and my fatigue is something that I can work with ... it is time to start living again!
Time to get comfortable in my skin again!
Time to stop standing on the sideline of life.
Time to break out my P90x and start back with the program that kick-started my health journey.
So, this morning was 1/90 and it was GREAT. I have lost a lot of strength but I am certainly not starting over ... I am stronger than round one. That was promising. I know that the muscles are there ... just well protected by layer upon layer of FAT. Time to build and reveal :)
This round my youngest daughter, Skye, is joining me. She has recently taken up Competitive Cheer and needs to work on her strength. This is a great bonding experience plus she is gonna love how chiseled her body is gonna get on this program! I am just hoping to be her size at the end of it :P SHe is so cute!
Anyway, I will be sharing my journey as I am still determined to be #fitby40 ... just by the end of 40 now :P